Day 15 in Aussie

Wow!! 2 weeks has gone past so fast and only a week to go till Im back home. The first thing im going to do is kiss......... my bike!!! I miss her so much. The terrain here is Aussie is ideal for her. The dust and the sand go hand in hand with her. LOL!

I am so looking foward to my off. Gonna work my ass off with Foursounds and earn loads of
"KAA-CHING".(Well hopefully there's work that is). There's so much to do but I don't know where to start and each time when the time comes I always forget.( I need to create a to-do-list).

Besides that...I still miss my band. We haven't been jamming nor performing. I miss making music and screaming my heart out,dancing and making a fool out of myself on stage and just laughing our ass from our lame jokes and actics.

Day 4 in Aussie

Brrrr....Is how I would reply you here at night. Its freaking cold!!! When you talk, it's as if you're smoking. But in the day is kinda hot but not humid like Singapore. The weather here can be extreme and cruel but nonetheless I'm doing fine. There's nothing much to do here except go to the canteen to use the i-net,talk on the phone,sleep and read the book Ferra gave me.

And guess what? We are desperately in need of ciggarettes cause we werent allowed to buy duty free ciggarettes at the airport -_- . Please god, is there any way I can get someone to buy for me my supplies?? I don't know how much longer we have to stay here. I miss my family and friends back home =((

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Yes people, yesterday was my 21st birthday. Finally R21! Yangtze theaters here I come!!!!

Basically it feels like my birthday was everyday for this whole week thanks to Farah. Cos i've been going out with her almost every single day for this week. She's been like trying to pay for almost everything even when i insisted that i pay. She keeps giving me the same answer.."Its your birthday!" In return, I gave her a white rose to show her that i find her very sweet. She even tried to tie my shoe lace when we were playing bowling and helped me pack my stuffs into my helmet bag. Yes..I notice small little things =)

Tomorrow Im flying off to Australia for 3 weeks. So ya...gonna miss every single one of you here in Singapore!!

And also today is my Sister's birthday! Yes coincendently it fells right after mine so i dont get all the attention to myself -_- hahahaha. So ya HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKAK!!!!

1:57AM

The things that bothers me most of the time shouldn't exist in the first place. I shouldn't think of people who shouldn't be thought of and yet my mind keeps wandering off to it. And it will always lead to creating more problems for myself. When am I going to wake up from this eternal sleep?
When am I going to stop lying to myself? When am I ready to face reality? When am I going to face the fact that I can't always get what I want?

I really miss my long hair. I really do. I miss the way it moves each time I headbang and when the wind blows against it. How i miss playing with it when Im waiting for someone or something. Without it,I feel like my self esteem and pride is gone. Thanks a million NS.


I've gotta stop creating songs about fucked up girls. Gotta create songs about the positive things. Gotta create things that inspires and motivates myself to push on harder.

Updates but I can't think of much

Glad I'm reforming back my old band with some changes to the line up. And the band name is gonna be different. It won't be Hanging By A Thread. However some awesome songs will still be kept. The rest are history. I'll be on keys now;doing what I was meant for since I was 5. However the band still needs a vocalist,a guitarist and a bassist. Anyone up to audition for us?

LAPTOP REPAIRED!!!!

Hey hey

So happy that i received my laptop yesterday! Was so excited to get home from funan. And the jam at PIE was delaying me -_-.

Anws...Life is shitty nowadays. Having torubles with money. Paying bills here n there. Plus fines -_- Haivng to work on weekends to support myself. So means weekend burned! How to fit in jamming,work,dirtbiking and girlfriend into both weekends? I wished i could stretch time =(
I dunno if i should consider again in signing on with army. At least it pays me well. And if im good for my performance, they will support my education too. Furthermore supply is soon turning into a combat vocation. So there will be cumpulosry IPPT and SOC. Its been a while since i did SOC. So look missing it and looking foward to it. Especially the "GATE". Like spiderman!! haha.

Whats your advice?

Too busy with life to update my blog.

Hey guys! I'm currently too busy with life to update my blog. Busy with trailing,NS and girlfriend. Furthermore my lappy crashed like last week and only later I'm gonna send it for repair. So ya...Will update fully once everything is back in running =)

Peace

Equiping myself for motocross action!!!

Think i should focus more on motocross than my music now. Cause I'm better at pushing my body than my vocal chords. And it gives me great joy when I ride. It gives me a peace of mind and at the same time an adrenaline rush so much that it washes away my troubles. Yes..I am an adrenaline junkie. However i need to get all of this stuffs first before I can fully all out train myself for this sort of sport. SAFETY FIRST!! BRAVENESS not equal to WRECKLESSNESS.



From left to right,top to bottom:
2010 ONE INDUSTRIES DEFCON/ZERO COMBO
2010 FOX RACEFRAME CHEST PROTECTOR
2010 THOR QUADRANT BOOTS
2010 THOR SECTOR KNEE GUARDS
2010 THOR QUADRANT ELBOW GUARDS
2010 ONEAL 3 SERIES DEVIATE HELMET

Thanks to http://www.motosport.com/dirtbike/index.php

Must set a target to get all of this by the end of this year.

NEW SHOES!!!! =D

Love bought me a new pair of shoes. Her so called late V'day present. I had to change my shoes ever since like half a year ago casue my right side, the shoe like split apart horizontally. Luckily the lace still can keep the top and bottom part intact and i can still wear it. But when i step in a puddle, WET SOCKS!!! Thanks love!!! Love the shoes but i love u more. =D

And in case some of you guys are wondering..Me and Ferra are so called going out again but I haven't officially pop the question for us to be together again. The reason why i fall back on her cause once you've been dating around with other girls and you feel like no one can compare to the girl that you love before in terms of personality, the times you've been through and what she has done for you, then.... She is The One. I will do my part in making the wrong things right again and put in effort this time around and not easily give up. "I LOVE YOU"

3 Days Of Valentine's Day for Us (120210 - 140210)

Hola peeps! Just had my longest and most memorable Valentine's Day ever and it started 2 days before the actual day!!

This was what we did on the 120210

Got her a plushie from build-a-bear. She's been bugging me to get her one ever since last year. So instead of just getting her one, i brought her there to make her own. It even has a small heart inside it. And she had to do some ceremony before it was placed inside. And we named it Spotie (We got a snow leopard instead cos bears are gays)!

Met up with Faruq and Kat. So not used to seeing Faruq so mushy and clinging on to a girl. Cute la them. Went bowling after so long of not playing and still I won!!! Faruq tk puas hati cause i used a lighter ball. hahahaha.

Then on the way home, a passer by MAMA were selling flowers. He asked me "Do want to buy a flower?". At first I said no, den i said yes. So i asked how much. He said 7 bux. I was like 'k nvm' and walked off den he said $6 and still i said its ok and finally he said 4 bux. Hahaha. So finally i bought that last minute flower and Love was like AWwwww.. Hehehe. I am sooo good at being romantic :P
130210

She's the most beautiful girlfriend i had ever had!!! Ferra had her JAA Dinner & Dance. What she wore just made me go GAGA. With her heels and black so called dress, i never thought she would be so hot in that outfit. But wasted, I didnt go for the event. Still, i picked her up after D&D and we went to Clarke Quay to meet the rest of my boys.

Upon arriving at Clarke quay, I saw Zul. And both of us were like speechless for a moment cause you see, Zul was Hanisah's Ex and I used to date her and we both thought that one of us was like out with her but end up we were with different girls. LOL.

140210
So Valentine's Day finally arrived. Me,love,Yan and Qiss went to Sentosa!!! My favourtie hangout spot to chill and relax. Had to walk all the way there cause the fucked up foreginers were overcrowding the buses and the monorails!!!

Love gave me a small last minute present for Vday!!! Cute la she...a container containing feraro Roche, Chuppa Chups and Kinder Surprise. She knows i have a sweet tooth. Heeee.

Keepers Of The Dream

All hail for us
We've come this far

We found a way don't be afraid, just close your eyes
We'll fly so high you'll barely breathe, now hold your breath
Don't bring me down, I'm not going down, Dont waste your time
We're here to stay, This is how we roll

We are the best there is
We are the best
I tell you why we are
I tell you why

It's time to sail
Let's brave the storm
Fight the winds against all odds
Mark this day in history
Bite your lips we're going far

Stay head to head now
Hand in hand with me

We'll sing this phrase as we marched as one
We'll sing this phrase as we marched as one

We're not the lost cause
We are the seeds of destruction
We're not the lost cause
We are the keepers of the dream
We're not the lost cause
We are the seeds of destruction
We're not the lost cause
We are the keepers of the dream


Lyrics by Reed Ridhwan
Performed by Avant Garde

BoringSundayturnedouttobeNotSoBoringAfterAll

Woke up today at 3pm cause last night had to work till 430am. Fucking bands...-_-

Was wondering what to do for the day. Dunno if i should go to the gym or watch a movie. Tried calling a few of my friends to see whether they were free to catch a movie. Turns out all of them were busy with work,family or friends or worst..still asleep. So i waited till 530pm for an idea to pop into my head to deal with this problem. I called up faruq who was still in bed to ask him if he wanna catch a movie, and he said can ah but at 6 or 7pm like that. I thought to myself; by that time movie tickets would have been sold out. Den i called up Ferra to see if she wanna go out, and luckily she said can. Finally. "Don't worry honey, dont feel like ure the last resort. Its just I wanna let the others have a fair share of me."

I was about to leave home at around 7pm, and that was when i got a phone call from Faruq and it was about our beloved friend Fauzi. He had a very bad accident yesterday and he is in hospital.

Went to fetch ferra and off we went to NUH.













Upon arriving, I was shocked to see Fauzi looking so weak. He is actually the type that will always recive people with a smile but this time I was greeted with something else. His left arm was like scrapped off. He hit the metal divider while cornering. His arm was wrapped with thick bandages and it had to be supported. From the pictures we saw, it was already very bad. Imagine if he were to really show us. The doctor said he need to go for another operation this Tuesday to have his skin grafted to cover the wound.....yes that bad. Be strong Guardsmen Fauzi and I'll pray for your speedy recovery.

After visiting Fauzi, we went for dinner at "The Cheese Prata Shop" where Fahmi's face got spatted on by Wawan. Lol! Hilarious...

And lastly we went to play L4D2 at parklane. Ferra is sooo good at using the "Charger" where as im very bad at using it. Always ended up charging to a wall and get shot dead after that -_-

So ya..thats my day. NITES!

Life

I feel that life's fucked up for me nowadays. I don't feel alive like I'm missing something. But I can't figure out what.

I must learn to be more patient. "A patient man always gets what he wants".

For Avant Garde Members

The Epic Intro

Our time has come upon to bring the dead to life
Come on and hear my voice
Inhale,exhale now,heart your heartbeat pump
Come on lets take control

We will never fall from grace
We will never fall from grace
The eyes our of the world are upon us
Lets take their breath away

Lyrics by Reed Ridhwan
Performed by Avant Garde


Like People Would Say

Never thought one of my songs could have actually relate to yesterday's event. Glad it happened cause I was running out of ideas to fit into the lyrics. Hah. This is the rough draft of it. The song is about people blinded by the beauty of a person and not being able to realise that they are actually being mistreated. Something like that.. lol


Your eyes,your eyes they shine
And I cannot hide from the light that blinds my life
I am blind
Oh my god I can see through your disguise
What have i done that have led to my demise

Oh why have i become so pathetic and yet you are so beautiful
This may seem like my last request to myself out of this mess

Have mercy.....

Karma will get to you babe
I can't save you cause you're addicted to the fame and wealth

Princess my dear I won't forget how you lied to me
You stepped on me
The stories were true
Opened my eyes to see the truth I see in you

Karma will get to you babe
I can't save you cause you're addicted to the fame and wealth

Your eyes,your eyes they shine
And I cannot hide from the light that blinds my life
I am blind
Oh my god I can see through your disguise
What have i done that have led to my demise
Stop the lies, the bullshit and the crap
Cause I am now coming for you

Lyrics by Reed Ridhwan
Performed by Avant Garde

What Fuck?!

Haha.. Never thought I would start out my own blog. Didnt like the idea of blogging in the first place. But finally decided cause maybe it will help me pen down my thoughts and maybe review it after a year or so, so that I can see what has change and what has not. And also preview to people about my "lyrics talent". Hah. Wth... So ya..this is my very first entry.

First of all. I am abit dissapointed with this girl i just went out with. Never thought she already had somebody. Kinda like her cause of her personality and pretty face (with make up). Shes smart,fun to be with and is a pre-school teacher. I have a fetish for smart people and teachers or nurses. Hah. Never thought a pretty face would be able to entertain little toddlers. Cause most of them would just like 'eurgh' but she doesnt. But the thing is that i am very furious about is that she's attached and she act as if she isn't. So aku apa lagi....kluar ngan dia la. When I asked whether she was seeing someone else she replied " Used to but finding hard to get over him :(" Like errr....Okaaay. But later..i found her blog and there it was. She and her boyfriend. -_- Baru celebrated anniversary pulak tu. Guess the stories about her were true but yet, aku degil sangat tk nk dgr cakap2 org but to see for myself. Ah amek aku! Bang! Pecah hatiku. Lol. Eventhough I only went out with her once, i dunno y the hell im sooooo fond of her. GOD IS PICKING ON ME AGAIN. hahaha. I am so easy to fall for somebody; just like the horoscope thingy said. So watever la...im moving on. Just dont like it when people lie about their lovelife. IDIOT...



So ya...after being so frustrated, went out with Ferra. Went all the way to changi jsut to recap my memories back in tekong. So miss those times =(


Kla..Going to sleep now!!!! Later got work and jamming at studio.